我在发掘理想的路程中不争气的犯困了。暂存一下iterations。
我活着为了什么？
1. 我喜欢设计，我要用好的设计改变哪怕一些人的生活，让他们在用到这些设计的时候会心一笑。
2. 我喜欢跟人交流，世界上有好多有趣的人，交流过后总能看到他们聪明的脑袋对他们几十年生活的聪明的总结。
3. 我喜欢被肯定，比如当TA的时候学生们在feedback上写下The best TA I have ever met，激动的想跳起来。
4. 我喜欢讲故事，讲我看过的听过的好玩的事情。
5. 怎么都是“我喜欢”？这个喜欢是欲望么？我活着只是为了做我喜欢的事情么？
6. 希望在我离开这个世界的时候会有人觉得惋惜。
7. 我想让自己的存在对别人有价值，就像老牛那天突然说，我从CA回来之后他的日子变得很无聊，因为我会怂恿他一起去跳伞去玩帆板，他的其他朋友只会叫他去吃饭。
8. 我活着也许有部分原因是想让爱我的人因为我的成就而开心。
9. 好像我是很为别人活着的人，为别人创造，让别人开心，跟别人交流。
–English seems easier–
10. To pass on my genes?…
11. Can my genes make my race a better one? Or my grand grand child may destroy the world because of my gene?
12. I can feel there is A very simple rule behind all the hassle of the world, I’m working to reveal it, for myself.
13. No I don’t want to just KNOW the rule, I want to apply it in practical too. People may say “Wow you’re so brilliant! How did you predict that?”
14. So I can foresee, but what, to make big money? To save lives?
15. Maybe, to protect the fragile beauties on earth? It could be an endangered specie, a unique landscape, a poor African kid struggling for life. And to create more beauty too.
16. But I can’t protect them just by myself. I need to collaborate with others, to make more people become aware of that.
*17. To have people experience what I experienced, those intriguing moment! Lots of these cannot be conveyed by words or pictures or videos. Seeing a gummy shark in the dark sea sounds boring literally, but to experience it is totally different!
18. So this seems to be… to make all the cells in a brain act toward the same goal.
So people are not selfish anymore, not greedy anymore, they work together to save the earth, to benefit each other.
19. So it is to create a…和谐社会？！？！So damn vague.
20. One step back: to make people happy. But because some people may want to entertain themselves by robbing banks, this cannot be “make people happy however they want”. It should be a mutual happiness.
21. Is this world a zero-sum game? I don’t know. But there should be many many non-zero-sum game that are being played as zero-sum, such as the two prisoners.
22. Hmm, to convert as many zero-sum games as possible to non-zero ones!
23. Again, part of this should be educating people, make them experience those inspiring moments. Like what I am doing now, which is inspired by Steve. P.
24. People are selfish, this is inevitable.
25. Fxxk, I want to be rich.
26. To educate means to plant an idea in people’s brains, people may develop different feelings and opinions from the same experience. But does it matter? Just to eliminate those stupid / irresponsible behaviors caused by ignorance is good enough. Make people aware.
*27. Make people become better persons. To overcome their selfish gene!
28. By creating a more efficient way for sharing experiences, educate people to be better souls that care each other, care the world, and make themselves happy for giving.
29. But I need to experience those first… So yes, to experience as much as possible, i.e. to absorb from as many as souls and facts as possible.
30. 现在看来，好像是否能得到他人的肯定也不那么重要，因为人们是自私还是无私，过得是否开心，完全是客观现实，可以观察。
31. 但是，总有些时候你无法让所有人开心。比如有两个喜欢我的姑娘，我只能跟其中一个在一起，另一个就会失望、伤心、撒泼、打滚、上吊……这时候怎么办？
32. 那。。。难道是说，要去消灭情感因素，消灭人的占有欲，让每个人都理性的活着，事事追求共同的最优解？这既像死理性派，又像佛家的六根清净。
33. 如果我让这个世界上充满了淡定的理性的和尚和尼姑，是件好事么？
34. 淡定的反面是冲动，是激情。人需要有为之疯狂的理想么？追求理想能让自我得到满足，但是难免会与他人产生矛盾，遇到零和游戏，游戏中落败的一方就会由于激情收到挫折而郁闷。。。nvm，郁闷也是人生的一部分，郁闷不会让这个世界更不和谐，只要人足够理性，就能在郁闷之后坦然接受失败。
35. So far, the purpose of my life is: to experience and to collect experiences from others, then convey these experiences to everyone to eliminate ignorance and to make them act responsibly, both for themselves and for others. When conflict of interests rises, they have the wisdom to choose the optimal solution for both side.